It's been ages between postings again and it's hard to say why. I'm so so tired all the time at the moment, not because I'm not sleeping and not really because I'm doing excessive amounts. It's not just me, my very nice man is suffering much more - his we can definitely put down to stress. D-word continues to be a pain and then some. And also the messing things around. From nowhere a text yesterday saying she'd forgotten that 12 yr old son is away on an activity next Sunday (his weekend at his dad's) so he'll need to be brought home un-Godly early on Sunday morning. Oh but he can come over on Friday night - but after lots of problems with Friday night and Saturday morning activities, weekends have been changed to run Sat - Mon rather than Fri - Sun ....... but that's got to change again. Hopefully he's going to put his foot down, I do wish he would because he gets walked all over. But his logic is that she'll take it out on the kids if she's angry (not physically I hasten to add, just being in a bad mood) and she'll also bad mouth him again - all of which is probably true but so not fair.
So that's a first para and a half - maybe I'm a bit more stressed with it all than I think I am. There are lots of nice things going on too. The new job is going well, I'm enjoying it and those above are pleased with what I'm doing so that's all good. The nice weather always makes the world feel better. I do get overheated quite easily but I'd still rather than the sun were shining than a cooler rainy day. This weekend we went to see some friends who are getting married in a couple of months and my v nice man is taking the photos. So we went to the venue to get some ideas. He's a bit worried about this being his first wedding shoot (he's taken lots of good photos at weddings but he's never been in charge before and he's worried about not getting a good set of photos - which is just silly because he takes excellent photos and it'll be great). I booked train tickets to go to the Edinburgh festival in August. It was an extra £30 to go First Class but I've decided that I deserve it (I'm staying with a friend so it's not like there are high accommodation costs). We're also planning to go to Paris for a weekend - my very sweet team gave me a voucher for the Eurostar for my leaving present so we're going exploit it. I've been to Paris twice - although we don't really count the first time, end of Inter Railing trip so it was August Bank Holiday weekend which was not a good start but we also saw our visit coincide with the Pope and it meant there were an extra half a million people at a Catholic Youth Convention as well as those who'd come to see him! The second time was really nice when I met a friend who was working in Brussels there and I'm hoping for a similar feel. We've found a weekend in September so fingers crossed for nice weather and not too many people.
But before that, it feels like I need to get my hammock out again and enjoy evenings in it in the garden - I know life's too short to get stressed so I need to behave like that too!
Sunday 27 May 2012
Sunday 6 May 2012
Rainy May Day
Rainy every day right at the moment. I don't have unrealistic expectations for British weather, I don't think, but really it's being very silly right now. I have been very wet very many time in the last weeks and it's also causing trouble with everything from floods to train delays.
The new job is going well, I'm enjoying being somewhere new and whilst it's not perfect and there are some problems there, these are new problems and at the moment, these don't feel like my problems. Things will change, they always do, but it's nice to be somewhere that has a better feel and somewhere where I feel I can add value and do something worthwhile.
Otherwise, my head is all over the place. I'm back to working 5 days a week so I'm tired and I'm also not into the right swing of things yet - I was used to doing 5 days in 4, which meant 4 long days, and I'm not yet into the swing of working 5 sensible length days, which isn't helping me. On top of that, the newness means my brain has a lot more to think about. But I am being more scatty than I should be and in a really bad way. I've been forgetting people I've met in my new job - this is not good and indeed embarassing as I'm usually so good with people and faces. I've also lost my rail ticket twice in six weeks (never previously in 13 years) and with 5 months left to run, it was an expensive loss. I did some serious grovelling, made many phone calls and fortunately by the rail company not understanding its own procedures, I was offered a further replacement and apology for being messed around. And I was told that under no circumstances would I get another one in the next 12 months, including in fire or theft. That has been quite stressful and I'm so relieved it's over.
But I don't know why I'm in quite the state I am. I'm doing anything that I haven't done myself before - work long hours, take on new things at work, be tired ...... but it's taking its toll. Maybe I'm old now! But I hope not, as I hope I have a way to go and if I keep getting more scatty each year, I'll have lost my mind before I get into my forties.
Divorce rumblings on - which can't help my state of mind either. Somehow she seems to get everything in a position of needing to make a mad, difficult decision very quickly, can't understand why it isn't sorted out, and then comes back saying that it can't happen any more and there's something else to be decided. My very nice man is tearing his hair out and gets very, very upset about it all - which breaks my heart because I can do nothing about that.
Looking forward, I'm counting the days until the Olympics - and going on holiday to avoid the transport chaos in London. I can't wait until I have a few days off to regain my mind. Some of it is hopefully still salvageable!
The new job is going well, I'm enjoying being somewhere new and whilst it's not perfect and there are some problems there, these are new problems and at the moment, these don't feel like my problems. Things will change, they always do, but it's nice to be somewhere that has a better feel and somewhere where I feel I can add value and do something worthwhile.
Otherwise, my head is all over the place. I'm back to working 5 days a week so I'm tired and I'm also not into the right swing of things yet - I was used to doing 5 days in 4, which meant 4 long days, and I'm not yet into the swing of working 5 sensible length days, which isn't helping me. On top of that, the newness means my brain has a lot more to think about. But I am being more scatty than I should be and in a really bad way. I've been forgetting people I've met in my new job - this is not good and indeed embarassing as I'm usually so good with people and faces. I've also lost my rail ticket twice in six weeks (never previously in 13 years) and with 5 months left to run, it was an expensive loss. I did some serious grovelling, made many phone calls and fortunately by the rail company not understanding its own procedures, I was offered a further replacement and apology for being messed around. And I was told that under no circumstances would I get another one in the next 12 months, including in fire or theft. That has been quite stressful and I'm so relieved it's over.
But I don't know why I'm in quite the state I am. I'm doing anything that I haven't done myself before - work long hours, take on new things at work, be tired ...... but it's taking its toll. Maybe I'm old now! But I hope not, as I hope I have a way to go and if I keep getting more scatty each year, I'll have lost my mind before I get into my forties.
Divorce rumblings on - which can't help my state of mind either. Somehow she seems to get everything in a position of needing to make a mad, difficult decision very quickly, can't understand why it isn't sorted out, and then comes back saying that it can't happen any more and there's something else to be decided. My very nice man is tearing his hair out and gets very, very upset about it all - which breaks my heart because I can do nothing about that.
Looking forward, I'm counting the days until the Olympics - and going on holiday to avoid the transport chaos in London. I can't wait until I have a few days off to regain my mind. Some of it is hopefully still salvageable!
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